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I hate the �about me� section... it�s such a drag. I guess I�ll start by introducing myself. Hi I�m Nadia. Well, glad we got that over with. Sometimes I can be a little paranoid, when I�m walking alone I feel like I�m being followed or watched, I sometimes mix fantasy with reality it makes life so much more interesting, yes I know it�s weird but I don�t give a damn. There are a lot of different sides to my personality. My mood is what defines me I can be sophisticated and sometimes I can be such a punk. It all depends on my mood. Maybe I�m still trying to find myself, who knows. When it comes to clothes I have no particular style. I like every kind of style there is, punk, girly, sophisticated fancy whatever I like to dress the way I feel. I don�t wear jeweler, it�s not me and I hate lipstick. I�m a rebel; I hate authority, and being told what to do. Ask me and I�ll do anything demand me and it�s on! I�m very proud and extremely stubborn tell me what to do and you won�t get very far with me. I�ve been good most my life well... with most people. But I�m a bad girl at heart. I�m painfully shy but that won�t stop me if I feel that an injustice has befallen me. I�m very out spoken. I always have to say what�s on my mind no matter how inappropriate. I will never let anyone walk all over. I don�t give a damn who they are. You�ll always know where I stand. I�ve had people use me, abuse me, mistreat me. I�ve been hurt, beaten, laughed at and embarrassed basically I�ve been through some nasty stuff (and I�m not just taking about school bullies) which would account for my coldness. All for the sake of friendship, because I was afraid of being alone, until I snapped and finally realized that that�s not friendship, fuck man I�m worth more than that! Now I won�t stand for that kind of thing. Never again. I stopped caring what people think a long time ago these kind of people don�t deserve the consideration. My favorite saying is �Do what you love cause those that matter don�t mind and those who mind don�t matter� it makes a lot of sense. I�m a bit of an anti-social, a loner, an out-cast. I�m quite withdrawn, have huge trust issues and a hard time opening up to anyone (in person at least) I have huge self esteem issues. I look in the mirror and I hate who I see, cause when I look in the mirror I don�t see the person I am, think I am, want to be and used to be. Hopefully one day that will change. Being the anti-social that I am I don�t really talk to people (unless I absolutely have to) it�s so much easier that way. If I don�t know you I wont try to get to know you or even talk to you for that matter, unless that is you approach me then I have no choice (I�m not rude) unless you give me cause to be. It�s not healthy I know but there it is. On the up side it keeps me away from the whole �drama� zone and everything else but meh, I don�t really mind. At school or in public I�m usually the girl sitting in the corner. Never noticed but always notices. I�m very aware of my surroundings I�ve always been that way, I often see things other people don�t. I�m not here to impress nor am I here to judge, I�m simply here why must there be a reason? So don�t try to impress me it�s flattering and all but I like and admire people that can just be themselves. As much as I like to dream and fantasize I am realistic and I like real people you just cant trust the fake ones. I�m very strict with myself about sleeping around, I�m no slut. I�m not religious or anything but I think that whole no sex before marriage thing makes sense if he loves you he�ll wait because being with you is more important than sleeping with you and if he does wait for you you�ll no he�s the one or that he truly cherishes you at least. Now I�m not saying that I won�t have sex until after I marry I�m saying it makes sense and that I haven�t decided yet. I don�t have much �guy� experience I�m very inexperienced actually. And that�s probably because relationships take a lot of work and if I�m going to get involved with someone I want it to be meaningful, not simply because he is gorgeous or popular or because everyone else is doing it. I�m not a follower. I go with the flow MY �flow� and no one else�s. So... just in case it wasn�t clear enough before I�ll say it again. I really don�t give a fuck whether you like me or not. This is me if you don�t like it that�s your problem have some respect, keep it to yourself and in return I shall do the same. Once you�ve got my trust and respect I am dogingly loyal. I most likely will do anything for you. (so long as it is within reason) I am a writer, I love to write poetry. My poems are quite dark and people misinterpret thier meaning. People tend to assume I am miserably depressed; truth is I don�t really know. My life is like a roller coaster, I go from one extreme to another, either I�m fine or incredibly miserable. I have a knack for getting away with things. Is it my personality? The look of innocence my parents have bestowed upon me? I don�t know nor do I wish to. I�ll take it for what it is, whatever that me be. I have few acquaintances and only a couple friends. It�s not that I�m picky but there are so many fakes out there that it�s hard to find someone real and honest. What�s the point of having fake friends? It�s an empty, fake relationship, I don�t see the point. I rather be alone then with people I hate to be around, people I don�t even consider friends simply because there is no one else around. Let�s face it, I can�t tell you who I am in one (very long) paragraph who can? Us humans are much too complex; there are things about me that I don�t even understand. Thus is life. As I�ve said before my life�s been exceptionally crappy and I�m sure yours has not been peachy, but sometimes we just have to move on and get on with our lives. In other words I have my own shit to worry about and don�t care to hear about yours so save it, keep it to yourself I apologize if I�m too forward. But I am just being honest. I�ve quit trying to help people, some people just can�t be saved and others just don�t want to. It�s a cruel world and those who say differently are living in denial or they have the perfect life which is very unlikely. Point is, all you can really do is look out for yourself cause if you can�t save yourself who can you save? Put yourself first. If there�s anything else you�d like to know, just ask.