||reading, writting poetry, roller blading, talking on the phone ect.|
||A walk to remember, Elektra, Prirates of The Caribbean, Princess Bride|
||Rock, Pop, and R&B i like a little bit of everything..except country.. i hate country music <div id=vpdiv><embed name="RAOCXplayer" src="http://media.bmgonline.com/jrecords.com/mario/video/let_me_love_you_300.asx" type="application/x-mplayer2" width="320" height="265" ShowControls="0" ShowStatusBar="1" AutoSize="true" loop="true" EnableContextMenu="0" DisplaySize="0" pluginspage="http://www.microsoft.com/Windows/Downloads/Contents/Products/MediaPlayer/"></embed></div></a><BR>|
||Keira Knightly, Orlando Bloom, Amanda Bynes..|
||All kinds im not picky when it comes to food...|
||"make love not war"-- "Do what you love, cause those who matter dont mind and those who mind dont matter"|
||Someone to talk to|
Friendship with a guy
Friendship with a girl
||sweet, romantic guys with a good sence of humor that arent totaly sex obsessed .. lol|
||fakers,haters , and people with absolutely no personality that live off copying other peoples' ideas.|
|Buddies: ||Buddylist hidden|
I hate the ďabout meĒ section... itís such a drag. I guess Iíll start by introducing myself. Hi Iím Nadia. Well, glad we got that over with.
Sometimes I can be a little paranoid, when Iím walking alone I feel like Iím being followed or watched, I sometimes mix fantasy with reality it makes life so much more interesting, yes I know itís weird but I donít give a damn.
There are a lot of different sides to my personality. My mood is what defines me I can be sophisticated and sometimes I can be such a punk. It all depends on my mood. Maybe Iím still trying to find myself, who knows.
When it comes to clothes I have no particular style. I like every kind of style there is, punk, girly, sophisticated fancy whatever I like to dress the way I feel. I donít wear jeweler, itís not me and I hate lipstick.
Iím a rebel; I hate authority, and being told what to do. Ask me and Iíll do anything demand me and itís on! Iím very proud and extremely stubborn tell me what to do and you wonít get very far with me. Iíve been good most my life well... with most people. But Iím a bad girl at heart.
Iím painfully shy but that wonít stop me if I feel that an injustice has befallen me. Iím very out spoken. I always have to say whatís on my mind no matter how inappropriate. I will never let anyone walk all over. I donít give a damn who they are. Youíll always know where I stand.
Iíve had people use me, abuse me, mistreat me. Iíve been hurt, beaten, laughed at and embarrassed basically Iíve been through some nasty stuff (and Iím not just taking about school bullies) which would account for my coldness. All for the sake of friendship, because I was afraid of being alone, until I snapped and finally realized that thatís not friendship, fuck man Iím worth more than that! Now I wonít stand for that kind of thing. Never again.
I stopped caring what people think a long time ago these kind of people donít deserve the consideration. My favorite saying is ďDo what you love cause those that matter donít mind and those who mind donít matterĒ it makes a lot of sense.
Iím a bit of an anti-social, a loner, an out-cast. Iím quite withdrawn, have huge trust issues and a hard time opening up to anyone (in person at least) I have huge self esteem issues. I look in the mirror and I hate who I see, cause when I look in the mirror I donít see the person I am, think I am, want to be and used to be. Hopefully one day that will change.
Being the anti-social that I am I donít really talk to people (unless I absolutely have to) itís so much easier that way. If I donít know you I wont try to get to know you or even talk to you for that matter, unless that is you approach me then I have no choice (Iím not rude) unless you give me cause to be. Itís not healthy I know but there it is. On the up side it keeps me away from the whole ďdramaĒ zone and everything else but meh, I donít really mind.
At school or in public Iím usually the girl sitting in the corner. Never noticed but always notices. Iím very aware of my surroundings Iíve always been that way, I often see things other people donít.
Iím not here to impress nor am I here to judge, Iím simply here why must there be a reason? So donít try to impress me itís flattering and all but I like and admire people that can just be themselves. As much as I like to dream and fantasize I am realistic and I like real people you just cant trust the fake ones.
Iím very strict with myself about sleeping around, Iím no slut. Iím not religious or anything but I think that whole no sex before marriage thing makes sense if he loves you heíll wait because being with you is more important than sleeping with you and if he does wait for you youíll no heís the one or that he truly cherishes you at least. Now Iím not saying that I wonít have sex until after I marry Iím saying it makes sense and that I havenít decided yet.
I donít have much ďguyĒ experience Iím very inexperienced actually. And thatís probably because relationships take a lot of work and if Iím going to get involved with someone I want it to be meaningful, not simply because he is gorgeous or popular or because everyone else is doing it. Iím not a follower. I go with the flow MY ďflowĒ and no one elseís.
So... just in case it wasnít clear enough before Iíll say it again. I really donít give a fuck whether you like me or not. This is me if you donít like it thatís your problem have some respect, keep it to yourself and in return I shall do the same.
Once youíve got my trust and respect I am dogingly loyal. I most likely will do anything for you. (so long as it is within reason)
I am a writer, I love to write poetry. My poems are quite dark and people misinterpret thier meaning. People tend to assume I am miserably depressed; truth is I donít really know. My life is like a roller coaster, I go from one extreme to another, either Iím fine or incredibly miserable.
I have a knack for getting away with things. Is it my personality? The look of innocence my parents have bestowed upon me? I donít know nor do I wish to. Iíll take it for what it is, whatever that me be.
I have few acquaintances and only a couple friends. Itís not that Iím picky but there are so many fakes out there that itís hard to find someone real and honest. Whatís the point of having fake friends? Itís an empty, fake relationship, I donít see the point. I rather be alone then with people I hate to be around, people I donít even consider friends simply because there is no one else around.
Letís face it, I canít tell you who I am in one (very long) paragraph who can? Us humans are much too complex; there are things about me that I donít even understand. Thus is life.
As Iíve said before my lifeís been exceptionally crappy and Iím sure yours has not been peachy, but sometimes we just have to move on and get on with our lives. In other words I have my own shit to worry about and donít care to hear about yours so save it, keep it to yourself I apologize if Iím too forward. But I am just being honest.
Iíve quit trying to help people, some people just canít be saved and others just donít want to. Itís a cruel world and those who say differently are living in denial or they have the perfect life which is very unlikely. Point is, all you can really do is look out for yourself cause if you canít save yourself who can you save? Put yourself first.
If thereís anything else youíd like to know, just ask.
||May 19, 2005 3:17 PM
||45 days ago