||hiking, camping, horseback riding, skating, swimming, reading, daydreaming, writing short stories and poems, and making wierd jewlery, and spending time with Cabayo Diablo (my horse)|
||The Fast and The Furious, The Lord of The Rings Series, Underworld, Not Another Teen Movie, Where the Heart Is, 10 Things I Hate About You, Phantom of The Opera|
|Top Movie Genres:
||Action, Adventure, Comedy, Fantasy, Suspense, Thriller|
||Augustana, Sugarcult, Meg & Dia, Avenged Sevenfold, Rise Against, The Fray, Taking Back Sunday, Atreyu, Kill Hannah, Trapt, After The Tragedy, Third-Eye Blind, Simple Plan, Train, Matchbox 20, LostProphets, On My Honor, HIM, Three Days Grace, Seether, System Of A Down, AFI, Good Charlotte, Drowning Pool, Incubus, Velvet Revolver, Pillar, Cold, Adio Slave, Distubed, Kill Switch Engage, Smile Empty Soul, A perfect Circle, The Used, Yellowcard, Chevelle, My Chemical Romance, Green Day|
|Top Music Genres:
||Alternative Rock, Classic Rock, Hard Rock, Metal, Soundtrack|
||Chocolate Oatmeal Cookies, Italian food, I like sweet stuff|
||The days blur together/And the months rush by/Eternity seems like nothing/With you by my side|
||Friendship with a guy|
Relationship with a guy
Friendship with a girl
||Friendly, Quiet, Smart, Outgoing, Truthfull,Open To Try Knew Stuff, Artistic, Longhish hair, dark hair and light eyes, blue or grey eyes, poets,Christians, romantic, loves me for me, honest|
||Loud, Slef-Obsessed, Narrow minded, Shallow|
I'm into a lot of different things,I love being outside and spending time with my friends. I'm an Agriculture Business major at ASU Beebe, but I'll be transferring to another school in the fall. I like horseback riding and I LOVE my horse Cabayo Diablo, he's awesome. I love my nieces and most of the rest of my family. Umm...I like animals a lot, I have a bunch of turtles. By a bunch I mean like 30. I'm not very outgoing, I'm actually painfully shy, but I can warm up to people, some faster than others. I can be very stubborn. One of my closest friends has told me that I'm not just cursed with being weird, but blessed with a deep understanding of others. I don't really know what else to say, if you want to know anything else feel free to ask!
I'm basically scared of losing the people that i love and that love me back. My friends are the reason I'm here, and as remotely happy as I am. They've pulled me through so much and I can never thank them enough. Sadly, most of them are leaving in the fall. I'm not sure how i'm gong to deal with this, they've been all I've had, and now I won't even have them. I can't even begin to imagine how things will be without them. But we've made promises to at least attempt to remain friends. I'm also scared of losing parts of my family. My brother-in-law, nieces, grandpa. I love them all so much. They're amazing, and they all make me so happy, no matter what's going on. I've only recently realized how important they are to me, and I'm doing my best to make all the time i spend with them worth while.
My views of my future
I'm scared. I'll admit it, I don't want to be without someone there. My best friends are all going to Florida for college, and I've been offered the chance to go there, but due to money and personal issues-I'm staying here. I don't know how things will be without them, I owe most of my happiness to them, and I owe them more than I can ever pay back. I feel like while all of my friends are making an escape to other states, the only move i'm making is traveling farther into the middle of nowhere.
Quotes I like
"If you're going my way, I'll walk with you."
"Heaven is high and earth wide. If you ride three feet higher above the ground than other men, you will know what that means. "
"Should have thought, but I didn't. Shouldn't have done it, but I did. Should be sorry, but I'm not."
"I'm telling you now for real I'm telling you thats my life this second and there's nothing more than life this second unless **** it unless you count the **** of the past and the death of the future and the **** you forgot and the pain you remember and the dreams that you stifle the music you make the life you surrender the world youre resigned to the job that'll kill you the girls who don't like you the dad who left you the mom who raised you the schools that fail you the stepdad who saved you the love that escapes you and the love that'll find you in a world that just ****ing doubts you and the pain of this second the pain of this second the pain of the next on to "
"To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven. " "
Forgiveness is not forgetting an injustice done; It is the understanding that allows us to set aside the emotional impact of that injustice pertaining to ourselves. When we no longer hold those emotions, and have understanding for that person, we have forgiven them. -Moonsinger "
A newspaper survey asked, "Who are the happiest people?" The were the four winning answers:
A craftsman or artist whistling over a job well done.
A child building a sand castle.
A mother bathing her baby.
A doctot who has finished a difficult operation and saved a life.
You'll note that money, power, and possesssons play no part in any of the answers.
"Everyone from time to time needs a little boost. If you see a turtle on a fence post, remember he had some help getting there."
What I'll Stay to See
I would love to leave Arkansas, but so much is going on. My family finally has custody of my two beautiful neices, and I'm so excited to get to watch them grow up. I've been told that they're going to need me as they grow up, and I'm honored to be there for them. My grandpa-the one person in my family who has put forth in effort to understand me, is very sick. If was to leave the state and something happened to him, I would never forgive myself. He wants me to be there as he gets better, and I could never leave him. I would give a lot to be able to go away from everything here, but I would give more to be able to have my family near me.
||September 13, 2003 5:45 PM
||84 days ago